Thursday, July 30, 2009

Accumulation is the Movment of Becoming: Part 4.

Now, I am sure you are beginning to see how this movement of mind is intricately interwoven with the physical body and the body’s ability to sense the external and internal worlds. Therefore, it should come as no surprise that one’s very ability to perceive would be involved in the accumulating movement. What may, however, surprise you is how intimately involved perception actually is. Perception itself, is a rather complex phenomena but we will go into it presently and attempt to do so simply. Perception refers to the ability to see, hear, or become aware of something through the senses with a certain quality of understanding and/or interpreting the thing being sensed.

From what we already know about memory it would seem that thought is involved, actively, in perception as well. I take it that most of us, having a vague impression as to what perception is, would often think of it as being wholly separate from thought, pure, not interfered with by the movement of thought. That is to say that we think that what we perceive is objectively so, is a fact, is how that thing actually is, independent of what I think about it. But as we will presently see, this is not so. Like all aspects of this accumulating movement of mind, none function, in the way one is accustomed too, without each of the others involvement. Sort of like the spokes of a wheel, with one or more missing there is imbalance and eventually the collapse of the wheel. Therefore, there is a constant need to maintain and strengthen the movement of accumulation, otherwise it falls apart.

So we are saying that perception is a fundamental aspect of accumulating, and with perception comes a certain bridge between the functions of the brain and the world of sensation, the external world. Knowledge, which we will touch on later, is another such bridge. It may make some sense at this point to bring one’s attention to the fact that, at times, it may seem difficult to speak about such things as perception coherently because, for instance, there is never a moment when perception is not, therefore it is not as if there was a period in one’s life, except perhaps as an infant when the brain, and its functions, are taking shape and coherently addressing the body and the external world, when this ‘bridge’ was not there. Which I think, again, perfectly highlights the shortcomings of language when discussing and examining an indivisible movement of mind. Let us say a word or two about language, seeing as we are using it all the time.

Language, by nature, is dualistic, which means it divides something conceptually into two independent principles. The significance of this aspect of language, and thought in general, becomes apparent when examining something indivisible, like the accumulating movement. This movement is indivisible, meaning, although we may see, and therefore, label certain aspects of the movement with different words and meanings, it moves and functions as a whole unit. Each perceived part is interrelated to each other, and therefore, in reality, not a part or aspect that can exist separately, independent of the others. However, language, and thought in general, by nature, conceptually divide this movement into independent parts, which when perceived, seem to exist as so.

It is due to the nature of thought, and language, being as it is that one has come to see, think, feel, and experience these aspects of the accumulating movement as separate, independent functions of oneself, such as believing that thought and feeling are independent of one another, thought and perception, etc. In other words, thought, and language in particular, break apart whatever subject is at hand, creating conceptually separate fragments of the whole and then perceive these fragments as being objectively and independently whole in and of themselves. We will go into these points in more detail when we are clear enough about the fundamental movement of accumulation to begin to observe how it gives rise to more complex manifestations, one of which we have come to refer to as the self.

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Monday, July 27, 2009

Accumulation is the Movment of Becoming: Part 3.

We began this investigation into the movement of accumulation by seeing it in terms of something accumulated, in whatever dimension that thing may abide. And yet through observing the fundamental movement of accumulation more closely we have come upon the fact that the very individual one takes themselves to be is also the result of this very same movement of accumulation. And this to is universal, meaning, every human being on this planet, today, and all the days past, with a healthy functioning brain, derives their sense of being an individual from the very same fundamental movement of accumulation you are capable of being intimately aware of right now.

However, at this point in our investigation, even the individual one takes themselves to be is but part of the complex content that flowers from this fundamental movement of accumulation and therefore not of our immediate interest. It does bring to light, however, another aspect of this movement one needs to be aware of, and that is of the body. One’s physical body obviously plays a fundamental role in the life and vitality of the accumulating movement. Memory is a function of the physical brain, thought, being born of memory, and feeling, take the physical body to be there central focal point and therefore dictate, to a great extent, the body’s movements, expression, needs, desires, goals, purpose, etc. The body is also the central image held in one’s mind, memory, around which the associated storyline of continuity takes shape and is maintained. It is primarily the physical body, and the image held of it in the mind, that allows identification to take place and it is identification with the image created of the body, remembered or imagined, which gives continuity its strength.

Also, because the physical body is the sensing organism, with many subtle chemical, neurophysiological, and tactile relationships existing within it, a powerful connection is formed and maintained between thought, feeling, and the subtler aspects of the body, none of which exist, or can function, without the other. It should almost go without saying that the physical body is a fundamental aspect of the accumulating movement, but that is often part of the difficulty of observing something very complex in the simplest of ways. Some things are so obvious, so basic that they seemingly disappear from view. However, this is part of our responsibility as we examine the fundamental movement of accumulation together, to keep all aspects of this movement in plain view so that the significance of the entire movement can be observed directly and intimately understood.

Why is this of utmost importance? Because, for one thing, it seems to me, at least in terms of what we are inquiring into here, that whenever one or more aspects of this movement are not seen, and therefore understood to be a part of the very same accumulating movement that is actually observed, the unseen aspects are thought to be separate from the movement. They are thought to exist as separate, independent functions and therefore having no active relationship with aspects of the accumulating movement one may be aware of in any given moment. Not only that, but when there is a ‘missing link’ in the movement, an aspect unseen, any sort of delusion of mind can step in to patch the link up. In other words, thought simply tells you what is missing and why. And this is a potentially huge problem, for when one begins to rely on being told what is instead of directly observing what is there is space created for delusion to set in. Which brings us naturally to the role of perception in the movement of accumulation...

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Saturday, July 25, 2009

Accumulation is the Movment of Becoming: Part 2.

So we were saying the other day, that no matter what is being accumulated in one’s life, and in whatever dimension that accumulation is taking place, the fundamental movement is of memory, images and associated words being remembered, added too, and organized in a coherent matter as to be retrieved when needed. The manner in which memory is organized lends itself to creating a sense of continuity as well. This aspect of continuity has more to do with the associated words then the images, remembered or imagined, held in memory. For the brain is recording all the time, images, experiences, imaginings, etc. but it is the words being associated with the recording that creates continuity, and with continuity comes the ability to access that which is recorded, no matter when it was recorded, because all of memory, active memory, is linked, interconnected through the word and the continuity the word creates.

Think about trying to locate one frame of a two-hour film; one frame, frozen in time, for example a scene of a sunset with two lovers holding hands. Without the storyline, without the sense of continuity the word creates in one's mind it would be extremely difficult to locate because all frames of the film would have little to no coherent relationship, even when previously watched from beginning to end. But with the storyline remembered, due to one's ability to associate words with images, one can follow the thread of continuity through the images remembered and come to find the particular frame desired. Of course, it is all one movement, one doesn’t exist in our mind without the other, and so the example is just used to highlight the intimate relationship of image and word. For one will never find the image without the word, and vice-versa, when it comes to the healthy functioning of memory, accumulation and continuity.

But, as I am sure you are aware of by now, as we observe the fundamental movement of accumulation, as we have been doing together, one sees how many aspects of life, that most of us commonly consider to be separate, independent movements, functions, or abilities of the individual are actually found to be one in the same movement. I am referring to the fact that accumulated memory gives birth to associative thought. And it is thought that creates a sense of continuity, that is a sense of time, which we will go into later. And we have seen how the image held in the mind as memory and the word associated with the image cannot be separated, they are bound in the same movement.

But that is not the end of it, this movement also includes feeling/emotion. For it is only through the ability to recognize, which springs into existence due to continuity, that one can therefore feel an emotion. Of course, we are not talking about needing the continuity of memory to feel fire burning your hand when you place it over the stove. We are talking about needing the continuity of memory in order to know, recognize, and react emotionally to that which the continuity of memory, itself, has given life to, mainly oneself and the life one leads, including the desires and objects of accumulation one has or is pursuing. And so through observing the fundamental movement of accumulation we are beginning to come to how the person, the individual one takes oneself to be, is intimately wound up in the complex content which flowers from the continual movement of accumulation.

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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Accumulation is the Movment of Becoming.

Accumulation is the movement of becoming. Those of you familiar with Buddhist thought will know that becoming is the root of suffering. Of course, we have no interest here in theories, Buddhist or otherwise, nor in any form of believe or second-hand knowledge. Our sole interest is discovering, together, what, if anything concerning human nature, can be directly observed, and therefore understood, with clarity and a sense of truth, without the need for believing, coloring with thought, opinion, or sentiment. And so, of foremost importance is discovering whether or not what we are sharing together is only the thoughts, beliefs, theories, hopes, or aspirations of a single individual, or group of individuals? For if it is, it has absolutely no value, it is utterly meaningless and destructive.

Our sharing, therefore, would be the equivalent of passing out blindfolds and collectively blocking our eyes from perceiving what is true. No, if it is true, if it has any value at all, it must apply to all human beings, everywhere, throughout time and space. That is not to say that all human beings must understand it, or believe in it, or live it. Only that what is being examined is found to be universal, applying to the human being and the human condition, no matter where, when, or under what circumstance you find them.

Therefore, what is accumulation? There is the accumulation of money and knowledge. There is the accumulation of things, material things, or things of the mind/spirit. There is the accumulation of experience, time as many yesterdays. There is the accumulation of friends, relationships, and the knowledge of one another that sustains a relationship over time. That is to say, accumulation is a very active movement of mind. If one observes, with interest and attention, one’s own life, one is bound to find this movement taking shape throughout all aspects of living, within and in the world out there. And so, being aware of the complexity of this movement, we are not going to define accumulation through one of it’s many forms.

In my view, in order to learn about something very complex, active, and alive one has to observe it fundamentally, that is, observe with the necessity to see that which is basic, central, simple, and universal about one’s subject. That’s not to say that the complexity goes unrecognized. Only that the complexity is secondary to the fundamental structure, or nature, of that which one is observing. Or rather, the complexity of anything, possibly of life itself, is present at the fundamental level, in it’s entirety, as infinite potentiality and therefore never negated through observing the fundamental. And yet, as we will discover together, the fundamental is simple, basic, and universal.

So, let us take me as an example. Keeping in mind another’s example, life, experience, and knowledge communicated through experience are utterly useless to the individual who isn’t actively learning about themselves. In observing the movement of accumulation, actually, within myself, I find that memory is an absolutely crucial factor when accumulating. Whether the accumulating is taking place in the material, internal, mental, or so-called spiritual realms, memory is the basic building block. It is through the accumulation of images, remembered or imagined, and words that allow the accumulating process to take shape and form in any given realm, dimension. And so accumulation is a movement of memory, which is able to actively access itself, in any given moment, through the associations created with thought.

And association is a movement of thought which ‘mimics life,’ for it is able to awaken aspects of itself through touching upon other aspects of itself. I say, ‘mimics life,’ because association operates without the individual necessarily being conscious of it’s operation and it’s effects and it can therefore seem as if things happen or take place independent of thoughts involvement. For instance, the words, ‘do a good job,’ when heard or spoken, can awaken a host of accumulated images that drive one to work harder or better in a particular moment, without the individual ever being aware of their actual motivation and how it takes place. This associative aspect of thought is obviously the response of accumulated memory, for without it; all that has been accumulated may be lost, forgotten, and utterly irretrievable. So it is memory that gives birth to a movement that is able to connect it to the present moment, that movement being thought.

And so we are beginning to bring to light the fundamental aspects of the movement of accumulation/becoming. And as I hope one is aware, the difference between what we are discovering together, now, and any particular form of accumulation is the fact that what we are observing now is actively present and universally operating throughout any and all forms of accumulating, no matter where, how, or what is being accumulated.

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Monday, July 20, 2009

The End of Attainment.

In spending more time, lately, reflecting on my interests in life I came upon an important factor which has accompanied my growth over the last 12 years. Right from the beginning of my search for meaning in life I had no desire to attain anything. I can remember the first time I heard the word enlightenment and came to understand what that word meant. I wanted nothing to do with it, and I still feel that fire of non-attainment burning within me today, stronger, purer. When people, with great experiential authority, spoke of their experiences, their states of consciousness, their living with truth, God, or what have you, I immediately, and without sentiment, denied their self-proclaimed significance within me. I knew in my heart, in my bones, in my blood, that anything attained is worth nothing in terms of the true significance of life. I didn´t need someone to tell me this, I didn´t need to read it, or believe it, it was, and continues to be, a natural part of my being and nature.

Now, by this time in my life, I had already seen through the attainment of this world´s treasures, in whatever form they could possibly take. And by saying ´seen through,´I simply mean I knew beyond a doubt that attaining anything this world could provide would not bring me any closer to the significance of life. Improve my livelihood, possibly, and with that there is no inherent problem, but deliver the other, never. And so this same ´knowing´ proved to be immovable even in terms of the spiritual, internal, and unknown aspect of living. I knew the attaining of anything, within or without, was a movement of the false, in terms of the true significance of life. And it didn´t matter who attempted to prove this truth to be false, this knowing remained and those false prophets fell. And it didn´t matter what experience I had, or didn´t have, they passed and this knowing remained.

And so it is today, writing this post, that I can honestly say, it is the understanding, the realization, the knowing of the absolute falseness of attainment, in whatever form it takes, that liberates the mind. And by ´liberated´ mind, I simply mean a mind that is free to look, to observe, to listen, without distortion, and therefore capable of moving with what is, living with what is, and remaining free of what is not, moment to moment. Therefore, and please understand this point, liberation is not an end, something that is or can be attained. It is not a state, an absence, or addition, of this or that. Liberation is the beginning of inquiry, and inquiry is the very movement of life free of delusion. And, therefore, it is only to a liberated mind that the question honestly arises, why suffer? I mind stuck in attainment may hear that question, borrow that question from a book or another, ask it of itself and receive an answer, but it is only, and always, a movement of attainment, of delusion.

It is to the liberated mind that the question ´why suffer´ arises, and with the inquiry that is born of this arising, the understanding, through direct contact, of ´how suffering happens.´ And it is the very ´observing of how,´ from moment to moment, that is the end of suffering. It is simply the observing; that is, a liberated mind observing how suffering arises and is maintained, that ends suffering. The observing itself is the ending, and the ending is moment to moment because it is the nature of a liberated mind to observe, listen, moment to moment, never accumulating, not even from one moment to the next. For attainment is born of accumulation, and accumulation is the movement of becoming that which is not true.

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Monday, July 13, 2009

Thoughts on Thought.

How curious, the unchecked authority thought has over our lives. Each of us takes the word of thought to be the all-mighty commentary for living right, or wrong, in this world of ours. It is closer to each of us then our lovers, mothers, or friends. You may doubt the entire world, but when it comes to your own voice, you unquestionably follow, obey. The total control thought has over the individual is what all totalitarian dictators strive to achieve in the world around them. Thought is the most dangerous of rulers...for it rules with such brutal disregard, and inhumane calculation, without ever being seen or heard as doing so. When you see that the oppressed has nothing but love and obedience to give to the oppressor, you know something has gone terribly wrong...somewhere.

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Friday, July 10, 2009

Thought Creates Time Part 2- The Beauty of Truth.

So what does one say to the question posed a few days ago of whether or not there is the psychological progression of an individual through time? Again, tying in several of the posts written recently, one has to ask the question, first and foremost, who, and or what, is the individual progressing? The question of time will come in later.
First of all, keeping in mind that most people simply do not care to look carefully, and with their full attention, at such matters, can you and I honestly ponder together the complex phenomenon of life with humble eyes? Eyes that are not hardened and restricted through years of acquiring knowledge and unconsciously assimilating belief into one´s perception? Eyes that do not come to vague conclusions or take the described form of something as it´s reality? Because I think with such eyes one can come to the truth of complex, and often misunderstood perceptions, with an ease and without conflict or opposition to what is seen.

And so with these eyes, can you and I turn our attention to the individual we take ourselves to be? Keeping in mind, we are not interested in the particular content, of our lives or minds. For we know this content inevitably distinguishes you from me, your experiences, your culture, your learned background, or your conditioning. So, if we put that content aside, we find ourselves solely interested in whether or not such a movement is taking place within each of us, and if so, whether or not it is fundamentally the same throughout consciousness as a whole. That is, is the movement of mind that expresses itself, in and through our physical bodies, as recorded experience, acquired knowledge, conditioning, thought, culture, comparison, measurement, etc. the exact same movement within each of us? If so, isn´t this movement therefore creating a sense of an individual self in each of us solely due to the fact that what is recorded by one person here, now, differs slightly from another person, in another place, at another point in time? Meaning the individual, as we currently take ourselves to be, is defined, maintained, and defended through the faintest of differing, superficial content of mind. And that which holds this belief, our particular content, in place is a universal foundation, or structure, of thought, which is entirely not individual, but collective and fundamentally the same in each of us. What are the implications of this and is it so?

Now, remember, most people brush such talk aside, calling it nonsense or simply intellectual gymnastics with no actual value or basis in the lives we lead together. Or, most likely, such talk frightens people, threatens their perceived security and they therefore reject it with anger or contempt. And if that is your feeling, or something of a similar nature, that is fine, no problem. For such an investigation as this only arises when an individual is truly interested in why they, or another, suffer, live with sorrow, in endless conflict, with tension, confusion, and misunderstanding clouding their days and nights. It is only with the awareness of individual conflict, sorrow, that the investigation into the nature and reality of self takes on a logical, healthy, and viable possibility in one´s life. For, as was stated yesterday, this investigation demands you give everything up, and receive nothing in return...no reward, no heaven on earth, no nothing. It is an investigation into truth with nothing waiting at the end, and no end to the discovery, of that which is true. Are you willing? Not for me, not because you should, or you think it is right to do so, but because you see, for yourself, the beauty of such an inquiry. The beauty of truth.

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Thursday, July 9, 2009

So Few Are Truly Interested...That´s The Beauty.

I have come to realize that most people are honestly not interested in matters of the ´self.´ And, today, that seems only logical. Why would anyone be interested in knowing that what they have grown to consider themselves is nothing other than a process, a movement of mind, and being so, lacks total intrinsic value and substance? It is only logical that very few people would take the time and energy to consider such realities, such truth, for truth undermines absolutely everything one has put together, identified with, and found security in.

We live in, and share a world, where the secure, the powerful, the comfortable, the privileged, and therefore all those left scrambling for survival, depend upon a total denial of the absence of self. Society, culture, civilization is built upon the foundation of self, the foundation of an individual me, and no one dares to question the validity of this foundation. Religion and spirituality have been born, and continue to flourish, out of the desire to know the truth while refusing to give up on the need to maintain and continually progress as a separate self, which in turn, denies the truth sought after, always. Even, and of course, the spirituality surrounding the belief of no-self, non-duality, etc. People may acquire knowledge concerning the absence of self, but this knowledge is the very movement of self, and therefore, utterly denied in regards to what is true.

Who dares to question belief, God, thought, consciousness, self...and find out what these words signify, if anything at all? And why would someone do so, for there is no person, community, company, organization, country, or place on earth that will acknowledge what you discover. There is no reward to be had, here on earth or in someone´s heaven. Truth has no value in the marketplace nor any beneficial attribute in relationship. It takes everything from you and gives you nothing in return. Why on earth would there be more then a handful of people interested in such matters at any given time? Which reminds me, I´m not sure how they are related, but truth and beauty are always found lying together.

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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Thought Creates Time.

Have you ever looked at the relationship between thought and time? Both physical and psychological time are thought-derived. Physical time, time by the clock, from sunrise to sunset, has obviously been created by thought. That´s not to say there isn´t a progression of change in the natural world that makes measuring time by the clock a logical and important tool for physical stablity and survival. But, none the less, the seconds, minutes, and hours of a day are thought-derived. This sense of physical time is not a major source of suffering for most of us, however, the other, pyschological time, is. Pyschological time exists as the backbone of self-centered thought in general. (Self-centered simply meaning all thought concerned with oneself.)

In this realm the very movement of thought is time, creates time. Thought, being the response of knowledge stored in the brain as memory, is what we have come to recognize as the past. What has happened to me yesterday, if deemed significant enough, is stored as knowledge and that knowledge, of yesterday, can spring into action today in order to change what we conceive of as tomorrow. So the existence of the past, present, and future is entirely thought-derived, comes into being when thought is operating, moving, thinking. It is this basic process of experience, becoming knowledge, which is remembered and able to spring into existence in any future moment, that creates a sense of self existing, growing, and maintaining itself through time. A self that is becoming better, closer to God, changing. Again, the physical body does get older, change, and eventually come to an end, and so it is rather easy to see how the same progression through time that seemingly takes place physically, would be imagined to be taking place pyschologically as well. However, is it?

In order to answer that question, one would have to begin to be acutely observant of how the mind, how thought, or rather, how the brain, operates in actuality. Right? Otherwise, one is simply listening to thought, your own or another´s, which is the result of the very process presently in question. For instance, has what has been already stated about thought and time accurate, true? For you? Or is it just another idea that thought has conceived of? And once thought conceives of an idea, does it become a fact due to the relationship between thought, perception, experience, and the human body? Who can answer these questions for you? Isn´t it the responsibility of each one of us to find out what is true and what is false concerning fundamental issues confronting oneself, and the world we share? Issues, that if left unexamined, actually threaten the survival of humanity as a whole. So what do you say, first of all, to the issue of pyschological progression through time. Is it so, and if so, who or what is progressing through time? We will leave these questions unanswered for the time being. Unanswered and waiting to be picked up, probed, and taken apart by each of you.

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Monday, July 6, 2009

What Am I Talking About?

The intention of this blog is to put to words, and therefore open up an avenue of communication, the importance of being aware of the movement of thought in our shared daily lives and how this movement effects the life and relationships one maintains. I know from my own life that reading another person's thoughts can, well, be just that, reading the passing thoughts of another. But I hope the interested reader can find more depth in what we are talking over together here. For the words written are an attempt to convey a powerfully active movement of thought in our shared consciousness as humans, and that is the movement of the 'me', the self. I am not sharing my thoughts on life, original or second-hand, but rather how life, itself, manifests, relates, and reacts to it's own creations, creating illusion and sorrow within the individual. I am not suggesting this is something only I am aware of, or some sort of individual belief one should conspire to conform too. No, rather to the contrary, I am suggesting that this movement is something each person can be effortlessly aware of on their own, within the confines of what they perceive to be their own, individual consciousness as a human being. It is a description, and nothing more, of how I experience the movement of thought and life, as pertaining to subtler forms of matter becoming solidified in the shared material world we've created together.

All thought is material. All that one can possibly be aware of is material. It may be subtler then one is accustomed to being aware of, but that is only do to the power of conditioning. For it is the conditioning of the mind, the brain, that seemingly blocks one from perceiving what is true, that which is subtlily taking place within the confines of consciousness each and every moment at hand.
This onditioned approach to perception must be put aside in order to proceed with such an inquiry into the nature of thought, for thought, being the outcome and response of conditioning, cannot be the tool one uses to investigate conditioning. It is only the relationship between subtler forms of matter and the human body/brain that we are interested in here, and how these relationships effect the life we all share together here on earth. It is my own experience that when there is effortless understanding, concerning the movement of thought and it's effect on the physical life of the body, there is space for meditation, a peace of mind, in which the blessing of that which has not been put together by thought is ever present and abiding. If you share the same interest, I hope you find the words shared here to be of value, and, in time, you add your intention to understand, to the fire that this practical and fundamentally humane inquiry into the nature and action of thought, has ignited here on earth.

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Saturday, July 4, 2009

The Complexity of Thought as an Indivisible Movement.

What is the nature of thought? Yesterday´s post stated that thought is essentially the outcome of knowledge that has been held in one´s memory. This knowledge is acquired through experience, which is essentially anything, any particular moment in the past that has left a residue behind in memory. That residue becomes the knowledge stored and used in future moments. So, within the nature of thought, there is included memory, knowledge, and past experience. But that is certainly not all. Feeling/Emotion is also part of the nature of thought, for you cannot have one without the other. Feeling/Emotion only exist and make sense, that is, can only be recognized, when meaning is given to it and the circumstance it springs from. Meaning, defining, measuring, comparing, all of these movements of thought are necessary to some degree in order to have feeling/emotion. Otherwise, there is no emotion. Take anger, for instance. In order to have the feeling of anger, the situation, person, event, circumstance that this anger arises within must have a certain meaning, value, significance, otherwise one would not feel anger at all.

Again, it is tied into memory and how images/knowledge are held by the brain and able to be recalled in order to lend meaning to a current event. So feeling is included in thought. Also, knowledge can be thought of as the word and the image. Words and images are held in memory and it is knowledge in these forms that guide and direct present action through the instrument of thought.
Now what are some of the factors that guide, direct thought in the present moment? Clearly thought moves and is directed by a great sense and need for comfort, security, and permanence, even if these attributes are not actually possible for thought to obtain. Thought is driven, twisted by such pursues.

Need, itself, is yet another powerful attribute of this movement of thought. Once it is established that thought needs security, this necessity drives thought in several powerfully mechanical ways. There is comparison, measurement, like-dislike (reward-punishment), recognition, conformity, ideals, and reassurance, all constantly operating in order to navigate thought through the unknown moments that unfold before it. And of course, the entire operation of navigating the unknown waters of this next moment spring from the accumulation of all past moments, as knowledge, as the word and a comparable image. One, therefore, cannot exclude perception from the movement of thought, because once thought springs into action it effects the moment at hand, alters it, changes it, and therefore one´s perception of the moment at hand is effected as well.

If one can acknowledge this taking place in any given moment one can begin to come upon the danger of this movement. For once thought acts in this moment, thus altering perception, it is the altered perception that is taken in and recorded as knowledge in memory, not the perception of what is taking place before the interference of thought. How can one be sure? Surely a key factor in remembrance is the word, for it is the word which holds together an image, which can then be held in memory and translated into knowledge that can then re-act in another moment as thought. If one is capable of observing this movement as it operates currently within you, one can begin to see how this process becomes all encompassing and completely isolating. It is a process that isolates itself the more it moves and records and therefore defines it´s security and comfort as a strengthening of this isolation.

This isolation, the culmination of the indivisible movement of thought, is what each of us refer to as the individual, the self...me. How extraordinarily non-individual we all are!

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Friday, July 3, 2009

This Me Will Always Remain Incomplete.

The interesting thing about myself is the fact that I am never complete, never secure, never unmovable. There is always the next day, the next experience, the next relationship, the next mistake, all of which inevitably breed the need to regain what was lost, keep what was found, change how someone thinks of me, start over, do it again only this time better...

Why? Why this never ending building up of myself only to have it waver, crash, fall, and need to be stood up again? Is it not the very nature of myself...this incompleteness? In other words, isn`t it the very nature of thought? What is thought? How does it arise? For instance, when I think of myself, what does that involve? It involves, does it not, re-introducing knowledge that I have previously gathered through past experience which is held in memory? Something happened to me last week with a certain group of people and when I see those same people again, with the knowledge of what happened last time, I act differently, or so I hope. And this is me, isn`t it? This movement of thought directing action, and the accumulation of the results of my action adding to the knowledge I will use for meeting future circumstances.

Now, since this movement involves time: past, present, future, it is obviously never complete, for there is always tomorrow, presumably, or the next encounter, the next moment, which will invariably add more knowledge to the storehouse that I presently am. So, this is the nature, maybe not in a holistic sense, but it is certainly a movement of mind, thought, that encapsulates me. I am of this movement and therefore, not being free of this movement, which implies not existing independent of this movement, bound to the very same nature, which is incomplete, forever seeking the more, the better, the right, the end...But, of course, by it`s very nature, incapable of ever arriving, resting, reaching completion. Why? Because there is always the next moment which inevitably adds knowledge to memory, thus altering future action and the way I currently view myself.

However, is one aware of this? Because the one who is separate from this movement, which has only been loosely flushed out and described on this post, only creates further conflict, confusion, and sorrow, for there is no separating a self from this movement. Self is a created phenomenon, created not by God, or nature, but by the unconscious movement of thought seeking it`s own everlasting security. One says unconscious not solely because one may be completely unaware of this movement operating within oneself. No, unconscious as well because the very movement of thought itself is insecure, not complete, limited, and therefore the desire for security and completion is utterly futile and false. Right?

And isn`t it true that when one sees something as false, truly false, it is finished, the illusion of it`s abiding reality is given up effortlessly. Isn`t this your experience? Until then, this me will always remain incomplete.

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Thursday, July 2, 2009

What Freedom Is Not.

What a world we live in. So much confusion, so much denial, so much overlooking of what is of intrinsic value. No time for one another, no time for reflection, no time for reality. Relationship has become such a petty affair. If you don´t accept one another´s utterly false view of life and the world around us you eventually find yourself alone, cast aside. Life has be reduced to one layer of illusion on top of another, with violence, aggression, and unhappiness waiting to jump up and secure one´s delusion whenever it is threatened.
In this world of ours, who is interested in freedom? Not the freedom to do this or that, or the freedom to be this or that, but total freedom from every form of delusion, compulsion, mechanical reactions of mind controlling your actions? Are you, or are you solely interested in fitting into some group or another, some culture, or subculture, some new fad or belief? Are you only interested in being comfortable, not disturbed, not bothered? Because in this world of ours not being bothered, being comfortable, ¨secure¨in oneself, means being, and maintaining, a delusional sense of self and perpetual sorrow. A self that conforms, a self that fits in, a self that is essentially a carbon copy of those you associate with, those you hold close to you. With only the faintest of superficial differences differentiating one from the other. And when you are challenged, even pushed a bit beyond what you deem comfortable, you become a miserable monster, a violent being, an insensitive movement of ignorance groping for your comfort once again. Who can deny this? It would seem that those who deny this are either free of all compulsion to protect and maintain a delusional sense of self, or simply protecting and maintaining your delusional sense of self, which you, of course, do not consider delusional at all. Of course, it makes no difference to me which or who you are, except for the fact that it is you and me and the other that make up this world we live in.
My only interest is speaking to, and with, individuals deeply interested in total and undeniable freedom. One will never come upon freedom, nor recognize it as such. This freedom is the living energy that springs into being with the absolute denial of all that is man-made, which implies all that is mind-made, is put effortlessly aside. And one can only put these things effortlessly aside when the nature of these things are clearly understood through one´s own direct perception. In other words, this freedom is never what you think it is, nor will thought bring you to this end, for the unconscious movement of thinking itself is the prison we find ourselves in.

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